Sorry Dear...

Omg... what a bad day for me today...
I broke a bottle of fruit vinegar cost RM 139 that my dear gave me... and what make things worst is i cut my finger...
So sad.. sorry dear...

I think what cause cause my bad luck is when i play badminton with my sis today, a crow flied above my head to day.. i heard before that signifies bad luck.. i dont really believe last time but i do now..

So all dear friends... Be aware of that... haha...

Secondart school gathering

Girlies gathering (5 Alpha)- Secondary schoolmates...

This is quite a big gathering since i left secondary school. I had meet up with some of those who had never showed up in gathering held after secondary school.. Oops.. i should not say this... cause i seldom showed up also.. hee...

By the way, i just want to tell all my friends that appear or didn't appear on that night that i really love them so much and i really had a great time that night... Hope you all too... Although it was just a short time that we hang together that night but it do means a lot to me... So... Im looking forward for gathering that would be held in the future...

For those friends that are not my secondary school mates but find that you wants to make friends with some of my friends.. Please contact me and i help you to arrange it... haha... joking..

Lastly, i just want to say "FRIEND FOREVER" to all the alpharian...

My dear

Nothing to post today... Since lately there are some of my friends ask me about my boyfriend...
Here are some pictures of him... These are pictures that i snap secretly... hee.. He don't know about it de... So those who know him de...Don't tell him o...

Gathering at feeling cafe..

It had been a while i din't updated my blog.. but i do updated my life... lately always go for gathering because all my friends got problems with their life lately.. so i must RESCUE them..ahah
talk like im a hero... no la actually.. quite enjoying these few month... gain back all the friendship that i once left behind... hee...

The latest gathering i go to is on 25 of April 2009...
Today my dear just back from outstation... supposed to go out with him personally... end up need to accompany all my dearest friends as they threatened me by saying if i din appear on that night, they will ignore me when my next sem of classes begin... so sad la me... so cham la... but actually it is very enjoying going there oso la... very funny la they all.. but there are some of friends who are sad... Who? you may ask?

The answer is SECRET...
Dear viewer and readers of my blog,
If you want to know the answer... look at the pictures and try to analyse who look sad among all of us... hee.. enJOY YA... that all for today.. tired already....
SEE YA...

My Internship

I have been doing my internship for almost 2 months already... Kinda bored sometimes but yet there are also some precious memory during internship... My boss is my RFP teacher.. For those who does not know what is RFP, it means Registered Financial Planner.. RFP is one of the external professional qualification/ license im pursuing instead of just pursuing my advanced diploma in banking and finance. My boss and seniors are all very nice to me and treat me as their own small sister, I also having a lot of fun working with some of my coursemates such as Jamie, Melvin,David and Erik.

One of the interesting thing during my intern is my boss's company had become one of the exhibitor in the MCA part time job fair...The fair was carried out on 9 of April 2009.It is quite fun for me... I had learned a lot from my boss and my seniors in the process during this exhibition was organised.. I also get the chance to meet Dato. Ong Tee keat (presiden of MCA) during the lauching of this fair.. Of cox im not the only person who saw him.. Hee..

Here are some pictures captured during the fair.. Enjoy ya...

New born life..

Today is a quite happy day to me as i am able to visit my sister and her her new born baby, this is her third child. My nephew is a boy o..But he is only 2.7++ paun.. so small.. But yet very cute..
I love him so much..

This baby will be the last baby for my sis as she does not wish to get pregnant anymore. So I Just hope for the best for this baby.. I love him so much...Muax... His hand is even smaller than my finger.. oh mine...

He is so cute... OMG...

Life is really full of miracles.. especially when there is a new born life into the world.. For me, new life always indicated that there is a new beginning in life.. So i hope that the sudden existence of "my nephew" will light up the life of all the people surrounding me...

When love turned into hated...

Its had been a while i did not post any blog...
But i was able to read the blog of a "friend". This friend was once someone who is very important to me...
Unfortunately, i had lost this precious friend.. I dunno why this friend hated me so deep...
Is it because i had hurt this friend so deeply that this friend no longer wishes to have any relationship with me..
Sometimes i really feel myself so stupid that i will still care for this friend, look at the blog, friendster that belongs to this friend almost every time when im free
Even i know this friend hated me so much.. This friends seems to have a wonderful life now without me...
I know many people might feel im cruel, fake or even evil to treat this friends in this way...
But i had never regret bout it.. At least i know that this friend had carry on...
Last week i had read one of the blog of this friend.. i can feel that this friend scolding me in the most cruel way and even insult me..
This friend say a lot about how fake i am? how evil i am?
during that time my tears really fall down in front of collegue cox i really dun understand why a person that once loves a person can turn out to be that way..
That time i know how much this friend hated me.. At that time only i realized how love can turn into hated., how hate can blind a person's eyes on all the goodness or sacrifice that the persons had once done... When a person is full of anger, hatred and being revengeful, all the things that he or she see are just those badness within the person...
4 years love= lifetime hatred+revenge
Not worth at all
But if this friend is happy
I AM WILLING TO ACCEPT ALL THE BAD COMMENT N INSULTATION FROM THIS FRIEND
Not that i admit i am wrong but it is because this what this friend wishes to do..
If "friend" you were reading this blog...
Please do remember my heart is open to accept you as my friend again when u r ready
Remember that when u were to see me please say "hi"
this is what we promise each other before
remember?
Please do understand that it had been a tough time to me too..
Just you never use your heart to feel how tough it had been to me..
4 years ..
and yet you feel that i am fake
sometimes i really wonder r u forgetting all the memories that we once had..

Catch or Release?

Today is 08 March 2009

Today the wheather is very good however my feeling is the opposite of it. Talking about feeling, how do i really feel today? happy? sad? dissapointed?

Even my self cant tell myself how i feel.. these few days my feeling is like floating in the sea without any direction. Should i describe this feeling as confused or indifferent or lose of direction in my life? I really don't know. Recently I just started a relationship with a guy. He is a very r esponsible and good guy. Is he really that good? Frankly speaking, i cant tell.. but at least this is what other people tell me and this few day i really can feel he cares for me a lot. I really feel grateful that i met him. At least I am for now. But everytime when im free, a question will cross my mind. Will this last? Maybe many people think that i think too much since it is just the starting point in our relationship. Even myself felt that i do think too much. But i really cant control my mindset. I have been staying single for 1 year before i met him. During that year alot of guys had try to approach me but i just cant accept them until i met him and decide to give a try. I thought that it was just a try, but recently i realised i really fall for him. This feeling had left me for 1 year but now it comes back to me, should i CATCH or RELEASE? I really dunno. I really had lost confidence in love, i don't wish to suffer or get hurt again. The feeling of getting a cut of knife in our heart is really pain and torturing. But i had decide to CATCH. I just hope he will understand that sometimes i do think a lot of negative things but i din mean to. It just that i get hurt deeply before and i need time to be confident again. I really hope he will understand that it is not his fault and stop feeling sorry for me. I want him to be happy and comfortable with me instead of stress with me. I hope i can be a good girlfriend for him. I really hope and i will try my ever best to let our realtionship to work out. ok? Hope you feel the same way too.

However, on the other side i do feel sorry for a person that is once important to me. I had view most of the blog,frinedster, personal message of this person and i realised that this person really mad at me because i start a new relationship. i just want to say sorry but i do hope that this person will understand that both of us should move forward, it just a matter of who moving 1st? This person is really good to me for 4 years and i dun hope that the relationship of us tranform from love to hate and revenge. can we become friend gain? i din fool u. hope u und that what im doing now is to RELEASE both of us so that both us can move further in our life. I really dun wish to loss a friend like u.

LOVE IS ABOUT CATCH AND RELEASE, IT IS JUST A MATTER THAT DO WE KNOW WHEN AND HOW TO CATCH AND RELEASE?